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Preparing for an 8 days'fast...


The last 3 weeks we have been following the instructions below, with some exceptions, (Christmasday and New Yar's Eve) :

"Avoid heavy proteins, white breads, cakes, sugar & other highly processed foods as well as coffee, alcohol & soft drinks. Plenty of vegetable & fruit juices are best. We suggest you eat and drink alkaline-forming foods such as: all fresh fruits, raw vegetables & juices, salad greens, sprouts, apple cider vinegar, dates, dried apricots, dried figs, grapefruit, melons, raisins, millet, molasses, lima beans and lentils".


From now on until the 9th of January we will drink this liverflush daily:

The Liver Flush recipe:
Into a blender add extra virgin olive oil- 2 tablespoons or up to a third of a cup, with fresh lemon juice-about 1 third cup, garlic 3-5cloves, ginger 1-knob, cayenne pepper half gram & top up with freshly squeezed orange juice.

It is quite spicy - but does not taste too bad though. 

The cleanse we will be doing is described in this book: (1 of 2) by Richard Anderson:


On the 10th of January the 8 day fast will start. Looking forward to that!
Wish me luck!


Do not worry

 

 


This is so comforting.  I do not have to worry about a thing. Really!!
The end of all this is absolutely sure.  How can that be?

I actually never really left my Home.  I am dreaming.  Now my memory comes back to me - bit by bit, and at a pace that is perfectly made to fit me.
I do not have to worry about the time, as long as I know the end is sure. It is written in the stars!

The truth is this: I am LOVE, and that will NEVER change. 

 

 

 

 

Unwind my brain - unwind me...


This is what my thoughts seem like - sometimes... sometimes more than other times.  Do you recognize this?

But it is possible to unwind it all... If I just start from one end, and very carefully observe, recognize and let go of all the thoughts  I have thought a hundred times before and thoughts about past and future...
Sounds easy?
Takes courage and willingness to letting them go. I do not judge the thoughts I think...
I decide  for this every morning.  I am not quite sure of how well I am doing. I cannot judge that either.  It does not matter.  I just decide and do it.

It is impossible that I will not succeed. I am the one who decide my thoughts.

I will succed.

That is my decision.

My prayer:

Dear Father
Today I give all my thoughts to you.  
I do not need any of mine.
Thank you for a successful outcome in the end.
I do not have to worry about ANYTHING.

Amen


Anyone can do it!

11 years ago I was diagnozed with breastcancer. That changed my life - forever.

My immediate thought then was - NOW is the time to do something that is good for ME.  All of a sudden it became clear to me, that most of my life I had attended everybody elses needs and wishes and had forgotten about myself totally... I had to find out what I wanted to do, what I enjoyed.  But my mind was totally empty, I did not have a clue..... Really scary...

Somebody told me to contact a spiritual center nearby and there I attended yoga and qi-gong classes 3 times a week.  I joined a group that studied "the Power of Now" by Eckhart Tolle. Interesting stuff! After half a year, we started studying A Course in Miracles...

I went to a workshop called  "Pathfinder days". After meditation the first day, we were asked to draw what we experienced. Oh dear, draw, I thought
 I was so bad at drawing, not me at all.  But I did it, drew this small drawing, showing me sitting in lotus position with a wonderful ellipse in all the colours of the rainbow over my head and light pouring down on me.  And then arms embracing me totally...


I showed this drawing to the therapist at the center and she exclaimed:  It is a modern icon!! Icon, I thought, hm.  Did not know a thing about icons.  Just for the fun of it, I made a new drawing, similar to this one and tried to make it look really nice.  I gave it to my sister and thought: if it touches her heart in a way, this is maybe something for me to consider...  
I gave it to her and tears filled to her eyes.. She knew excactly what it was!

One night shortly after I had a dream with a figure called Abraham, a helper.  I did not know what it was he would help me with, just presented himself as the helper by the name Abraham.

The next morning there was a letter for me in the postbox.  It contained a programme from another spiritual center.  What immediately caught my eyes was a course in iconpainting!!  Not only was it a course in iconpainting, the teacher was a danish nun by the name, would you imagine -   sister ABRAHAM.

The guidance could not be much clearer.  I attended the 5 days workshop in Jutland, and I was like in a different world totally.  Painting Mary, Jesus mother and Mary Magdalene in these five days.  I made me so extremely happy, words can not describe it.  

I KNEW, this was for me, I knew this was something I would do for the rest of my life,
So I went home, showed the icons to everybody, and everybody were very polite and  happy with me and thought the icons were wonderful, and so did I.  I thought it was miraculous!  I never knew how to draw, I never knew how to paint (I thought).
So at home I immediately started making wooden boards with gesso (chalk and rabbitglue and water)   to paint on (the traditional iconographer's way)

One of my first icons

And I repeated the icon with Mary and the child, again and again and again.  They became better and better I thought, and I was at that time afraid I would loose it again, that the next icon would not be good, that it was a coincident that I managed the first times....

I have been spending time painting icons almost every day since then!  I have been abroad for classes, in a finnish monastery, at an castle in Wales, in Larissa in Greece.. I have found the best teachers (of course)...
I have also attended drawing classes, and found out I am actually really good at drawing as well.  Never knew that.. It only has to do with opening your eyes and learn how to distinguish darkness from light!

After a couple of years a friend suggested I gave a class in iconpainting at her center.  Me I though - teach? 
(in fact, I had been told by a clairvoyant that I was to teach, but  thought I knew nothing  to teach...)

 But I did and I loved it from the very beginning. That is 7 years ago now. I have had about 40 classes in Denmark as well as in Norway and the Faroe Islands.
I know it is something everybody can do.  Everybody can learn to open their eyes, everybody can learn to see darkness and light.  To concentrate on each stroke of the pen, trust in the good result, not worry if there is time enough..
The interesting thing about iconpainting is that we always go from darkness to light.  One always starts with the darkest colour for instance of the cloth.  and put lighter and lighter layers, thus creating the form.
From darkness to light - just like in our lives...

It took me quite a long time to figure out why I had this urge to repeat Mother and child again and again and again... 

 It has been such a tremendous help and inspiration to me.  Every day when I look at my icons I am reminded of the love of God for me.  That there is nothing to fear, that I am taken care of !!

What I have learnt is this:  Our thoughts  limits us..only our thoughts.  


Anyone can do it!!

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I open my heart



The sun is here - the ice is melting ...
Slowly, slowly, it gives way to the heat of the sun.

I open up my heart to let the light in

So it can shine away every dark corner,
where fear has been hiding for so long.

Finally.


I need do nothing


This is one of the most wonderful things I have ever come across.

I need do nothing..

I will rest, and I will let Him lead the way.

I do not know what anything is for - and I do not have to worry about what to say or what to do.


It does not matter whether or not I agree with my fellow "A Course in Miracles" students - I only have to save myself - by realizing - I know nothing...



From the Urtext: (as it was orginally written down by  the scribe of A Course in Miracles)

(October 5, 1975)
Be comforted. You are not asked to do anything. There is a time when to step back is all that is asked of you. It is a time of rest and not of strain; a time of peace and not a time of conflict.That time is almost here. It seems fearful because it is not under your control. But think a minute; stop and think honestly about what your control has done; what it has brought to you.
You have been caught in a trap from which you never could escape. Conflict, guilt and fear have come with you and never left your side. Each one of you has done this differently, yet each has come to the same place; the same impasse. And now it seems to each of you that there is no escape. For it is true that you cannot escape alone. Your stories seem to differ, for they do take different forms.Yet their one content makes you brothers. Dwell not upon the differences or you are lost. It is in recognizing the common content; the common need, that you are saved!
The mess that is your lives is an illusion. What can the form of dreams resolve? There is no answer to a question not yet asked, for it would not be recognized. Ask only this: Will I fulfill the function given me? What else is there to ask? Why must I know the form in which the answer comes to me? God answers, “Yes” and it is done. No more than this is meaningful to you.
It is not He Who would withhold the future and leave you fearful. You could not accept His “yes”in forms you would not understand. Things still in time unfold as is appointed them, and many things remain undone as yet. Plans based upon intangibles cannot be fully shown to you. And what has not as yet occurred must BE intangible.This phase of learning has a single lesson for all the forms your problems seem to take. To God all things are possible, but you must ask His answer only of Himself.
Perhaps you think you do, but be you sure that if you did you would be quiet now and wholly undismayed by anything. Do not attempt to guess His Will for you. DO NOT ASSUME THAT YOU ARE RIGHT BECAUSE AN ANSWER SEEMS TO COME FROM HIM. BE SURE YOU ASK, AND THEN BE STILL AND LET HIM SPEAK. There is no problem He cannot resolve, for it is never He Who keeps apart some questions to be solved by someone else. You cannot share the world with Him and make half of it His while half belongs to you. Truth makes no compromise. To keep apart a little is to keep all separate. Your life, complete and whole, belongs to God or none of it is His. There is no thought in all the world that seems more terrible.
Yet it is only when this thought appears in perfect clarity that there is hope in peace and safety for the mind so long kept dark and twisted to avoid the light. This IS the light. Step back and do not dwell upon the forms that seem to keep you bound. You WILL fulfill your function. And will have whatever you will need. God does not fail. But lay no limits on what you would give to Him to be resolved. For He can not offer a thousand answers when but one is all there is. Accept this one of Him, and not one question will remain to ask.
DO NOT FORGET IF YOU ATTEMPT TO SOLVE A PROBLEM, YOU HAVE JUDGED IT FOR YOURSELF AND SO YOU HAVE BETRAYED YOUR PROPER ROLE. Grandeur, which comes from God, establishes that judgment is impossible for you. But grandiosity insists you judge, and bring to this all problems that you have. And what is the result? Look carefully upon your life and let it speak for you.
Is this frail breath and deep uncertainty your choice for you? Or would you rather rest in surety, certain you would not fail in your request to have all problems happily resolved? Do not mistake the fine disguises you can use to cover judgment. It appears as charity, as mercy and as love; as pity, understanding and as care. And yet you know it is not what it seems because the problem still remains unsolved, and comes to haunt your mind in evil dreams.
What have you kept from God that you would hide behind your judgment? What have you concealed beneath the cloak of kindness and concern? Use no one for your needs, for that is “sin,” and you will pay the penalty in guilt. Remember you need nothing, but you have an endless store of loving gifts to give. But teach this lesson only to yourself.
YOUR BROTHER WILL NOT LEARN IT FROM YOUR WORDS OR FROM THE JUDGMENTS YOU HAVE LAID ON HIM. YOU NEED NOT EVEN SPEAK A WORD TO HIM. YOU CANNOT ASK, “WHAT SHALL I SAY TO HIM?” AND HEAR GOD’S ANSWER. RATHER ASK INSTEAD, “HELP ME TO SEE THIS BROTHER THROUGH THE EYES OF TRUTH AND NOT OF JUDGMENT,” AND THE HELP OF GOD AND ALL HIS ANGELS WILL RESPOND.
For only here we rest. We cast away our little judgments and our petty words; our tiny problems and our false concerns.We have attempted to be master of our destiny and thought that peace lay there.Freedom and judgment IS impossible. But by your side is One Who knows the way.Step back for Him and let Him lead you to the rest and silence of the Word of God.




Lifting of the veil...


Today I have been painting the veil of Mary.
Again and again the thought came to me: lifting of the veil ...lifting of the veil.
Her veil is lifted so she can see.

So this is what I read in A Course in Miracles:
T.19.IV.D.i.21

"You came this far because the journey was your choice. And no one undertakes to do what he believes is meaningless. What you had faith in still is faithful, and watches over you in faith so gentle yet so strong that it would lift you far beyond the veil, and place the Son of God safely within the sure protection of his Father."

Thank you... This She assures me of as I am painting the veil...





The Great Bell Chant - The end of suffering

Read by Thich Nath Hanh, chanted by brother Phap Niem.

 
I find it more than relaxing - listening to - and watching this wonderful video.

I hope you will enjoy it too.




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Specialness...




I have come to realize that every thing that happens to me, I ask for, and receive as I have asked.  And everything that happens to me is for a reason and is a lesson I can choose to learn.
So far so good.
I also know now that this journey is taken in steps... one at a time.
So here I am in Larissa, thinking I am here to learn iconpainting, by a  great teacher who paints wonderful icons.  And I am here to learn that - but I am being given anothert lesson - on top of that.  I am so lucky!
I have been teaching iconpainting for maybe 4 or 5 years now.  I often hear from the students that I am good.  Good at painting straight lines, good at painting lovely eyes, and goodlooking hair etc. And I observe how much my ego rejoices in all this!
And I do not attack myself for that, I observe it - and leave it, without judging myself.  So far so good.
Today I had another great lesson presented to me.  On working with a particularly difficult part of one of Theodore's own icons, I just lost it.  Could not see the lines, misunderstood what he said, and all went totally wrong.
And then, my teacher told me that I must practice, try to learn my eyes to see,  remember I am a beginner, paint straight lines, not too blurred, blurred on one side, not the other...
Of my God, I was just about to walk out of the whole thing. Why?  Someone tried to push me from my throne of specialness!!  I knew I wanted to be special, but that it was this big?
It really pissed me off. 
So what to do here?  I am so glad I was able to observe this.   But observation is not enough.   I have to show the whole thing to the Holy Spirit, look at it with forgiving eyes, and not judging it.  Just see that this is how I am,  this is the way I react.  And slowly it lost its grip in me, and I could laugh at the whole thing, and I could also tell Theodore and Violeta about my observations.
I am so grateful that they  would listen to me,  it is of great help to get it out in the open so to speak...

So - besides being taught Theodore's way to paint an icon - there are also other great  lessons involved here!
And there is great help for me to read in A Course in Miracles.
When I came home I read the following lesson :


 Light and joy and peace abide in me (lesson 93)


This is the truth bout me




2 kommentarer:

Joshua Crayton sagde ...

The poetry is beautiful. Thank You

Anne-Marie Valton sagde ...

Thank you Joshua!